Leisurely Life

I have lived this whole 18 years believing that I am living a leisurely life. By the fact that I can do what I want to do, go anywhere I want, and have many friends whom I really can trust, I believed that I am mentally, and externally living a leisurely life.

However, after talking with my friends, I found myself throwing a question that is I living a leisurely life now.

As many people say in common, I also believe that someone who is mentally relaxed is living a leisurely life. There could be people who have lots of time to spare, however, if they don’t have any place in their mind to spare and enjoy themselves, that ‘time’ will never be the leisure time that they can enjoy entirely. That ‘spare time’ that is left for those people, will instead become a disconcerting factor for them.

Then what will be a meaning of a ‘leisurely time’? After talking and thinking about the definition, for me, the leisurely time is not only the time, but also the status that I can enjoy the time entirely, and feel relaxed and happy when I do the work. This concept of “leisure” becomes more valuable in this busy modern world.

So I’ve looked over my life after entering KMLA and if I had a leisurely time, which is all devoted to just myself. I was really busy that I cannot remember what I did last year, but even I was busy that much, I actually had lots of time to spare. Nevertheless, I wasn’t ready to enjoy those time entirely, so I couldn’t make that spare times for my own, relaxing time. The only time I could enjoy my leisure time last year was after the exam was ended, and the vacation. It was the first time to stay in a dormitory and think about the personal relationship this much, grades, and so on. For me, who has been busy and hectic with these things, I think the time that came after some big frame was finished was time to take care of my composure. Even if the same amount of time had been given to me, I probably wouldn't have been able to enjoy leisure because the concept of enjoying leisure time depends on my mindset.

As it has been, I think leisure is something that I make up my mind, in other words, I make myself. I need to know how to look at myself more closely, know what kind of work I'm comfortable and happy when I'm doing, whether it's better to finish work and have some free time, or if it's better to take a break when I'm too tired and tired, and so on.

There were so many more good times than hard times, but I wonder how many of those days I truly think have been a 'leisure' day, and how many more of those days will come in my future. Of course, it would also be up to your mind.

“There are moments when all anxiety and stated toil are becalmed in the infinite leisure and repose of nature.” - Henry David Thoreau -