Elin, Saeyoung!
Yes! I'm present.
Since I was five years old, in my kindergarten and the English classes, I was called as Elin. It is my precious English name that my parents gave. I am not sure why they gave that name because they never told me the reason, though, I liked my name at first sight. So I decided to use the name "Elin" whenever I needed an English name. I was just a 5-year-old girl, and the time when I got my new English name, I just got started to learn English. I just knew a few words and alphabets, and barely spoke in a sentence. I thought the spelling of the princess was 'plincess,' accordingly, I believed that my name is from 'plincess.' So whenever someone asked me if I have a nickname or an English name, I told them proudly, "My name is Elin."
Yes! I'm present.
Since I was five years old, in my kindergarten and the English classes, I was called as Elin. It is my precious English name that my parents gave. I am not sure why they gave that name because they never told me the reason, though, I liked my name at first sight. So I decided to use the name "Elin" whenever I needed an English name. I was just a 5-year-old girl, and the time when I got my new English name, I just got started to learn English. I just knew a few words and alphabets, and barely spoke in a sentence. I thought the spelling of the princess was 'plincess,' accordingly, I believed that my name is from 'plincess.' So whenever someone asked me if I have a nickname or an English name, I told them proudly, "My name is Elin."
Everyone in my English class called me Elin, and they said they also liked my name because it easy to pronounce, and the mood of the name fits me well. Nobody ever tackled with that name. However, one day, a new English teacher came to my class. And she asked my name. As usual, I told her that my name is Elin. I was so proud that I had my English name while others were hesitating to choose their name between John, Josh, Tom, and all the other list of common English names. And at that moment, with the rigid face, the new teacher said:
"Saeyoung, Elin isn't a real English name. I studied abroad, and I've never heard of that name. I believe you have the wrong name. It should be Erin, Elly, or Ellin. Change your name among those three."
I was so shocked.
My name isn't a 'real' name? it is 'wrong?' Maybe she just told me to advise and teach some new things to her students, but I was too young that I couldn't accept her advice. I was just obsessed with her wording- the wrong name. That little girl was so shocked at the fact that someone told me that it is 'wrong, fake' toward the thing that I believed it is real and precious. My heart pounded fast; it was the fastest heartbeat I've ever heard. I could not focus on lectures or to my friend's conversation. I was just obsessed with that day's happening and my 'wrong name.' I wanted to find the clue that my name, 'Elin,' is a real English name and confidently rebut my teacher. I've even searched on the Internet, typing Elin on all the search engines. But there was nothing about the fake or wrong English name. I was more confused.
As a young girl, I was so stunned by my teacher's saying; I firmly believed my name is great, unique, and precious. My teacher persuaded me a lot to change the name, but I just decided to keep the name 'Elin.' She said there is no such name as Elin. However, reversely, I decided to think that it is lucky to be only "Elin" among her friends and students, and even abroad. As soon as I changed my mindset like that, I was also thankful to my teacher, arousing me about my precious, unique name, Elin.
Even now, I use this name. I now know that it is not 'plincess,' it's 'princess,' still, I like my name. There are lots of reasons, but the biggest one is because it represents the true me, myself.
No matter who uses this name or not, or even no matter who criticizes my name, I love my name. Maybe it would be better if there is no one with the name Elin because then, I can genuinely be the only person who is 'Elin.'
"Saeyoung, Elin isn't a real English name. I studied abroad, and I've never heard of that name. I believe you have the wrong name. It should be Erin, Elly, or Ellin. Change your name among those three."
I was so shocked.
My name isn't a 'real' name? it is 'wrong?' Maybe she just told me to advise and teach some new things to her students, but I was too young that I couldn't accept her advice. I was just obsessed with her wording- the wrong name. That little girl was so shocked at the fact that someone told me that it is 'wrong, fake' toward the thing that I believed it is real and precious. My heart pounded fast; it was the fastest heartbeat I've ever heard. I could not focus on lectures or to my friend's conversation. I was just obsessed with that day's happening and my 'wrong name.' I wanted to find the clue that my name, 'Elin,' is a real English name and confidently rebut my teacher. I've even searched on the Internet, typing Elin on all the search engines. But there was nothing about the fake or wrong English name. I was more confused.
As a young girl, I was so stunned by my teacher's saying; I firmly believed my name is great, unique, and precious. My teacher persuaded me a lot to change the name, but I just decided to keep the name 'Elin.' She said there is no such name as Elin. However, reversely, I decided to think that it is lucky to be only "Elin" among her friends and students, and even abroad. As soon as I changed my mindset like that, I was also thankful to my teacher, arousing me about my precious, unique name, Elin.
Even now, I use this name. I now know that it is not 'plincess,' it's 'princess,' still, I like my name. There are lots of reasons, but the biggest one is because it represents the true me, myself.
No matter who uses this name or not, or even no matter who criticizes my name, I love my name. Maybe it would be better if there is no one with the name Elin because then, I can genuinely be the only person who is 'Elin.'
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